2 posts tagged “myspace”
I just joined myspace. I feel dirty all over.
sometime over the weekend, or maybe last week, i sat myself down at the computer and logged on to my husband's myspace.
i've not spent much time at all on there, mostly because it never
interested me. i've had some form of a blog for years now, and the only
thing i've ever used them for is to write. on myspace, it seems like
the thing to do is to leave messages for people. sort of a delayed
instant message. i just don't get it.
but i logged on, whenever that was, just to see what i could see.
apparently, you can search for old classmates on there. so i did this
search thingie, and found dozens of people i haven't seen in years.
and it was bizarre. there were girls married to random boys we went to
school with. everyone had children. scarier yet, everyone had masters
degrees and were teachers or recruiters or some other odd thing.
there were born-again christians where there weren't any before, and
there was a gospel singer-songwriter, who obviously had not discovered
his homosexuality as we had predicted he would.
so i searched and searched, never commenting. just checking out all
these people i had known for 13 years, that were so incredibly
different than when we were younger. and they were all friends on
myspace. one person lead to the next, who was friends with ten more
people i had once known, and i kept moving around and around until i'd
seen everyone i knew.
jared finally came home from work, and i was happy to log off.
and since then, i've felt... weird.
i didn't see anyone whose life even slightly parallels mine. this is
great -- it's wonderful, because i'd spent my entire childhood being
who i wanted to be, and priding myself in the fact that i was not like these people.
but suddenly it seems like they're more grown up then me, and like i'm
still who i was and they've moved on to bigger and better things.
but then i've thought: i have the best life of anyone i know. i like who i am. i am overwhelmingly happy.
and i've had the horrible urge to get on myspace and make sure everyone knows just how happy i am.
